Discover Adulting with Grace

My mother has cancer. ... I wanted to spend... so badly wanna comfort buy games and webnovels... I added stuff to my cart on one of the bundle sites and I planned to spend 100 to get credits on webnovel... sigh... it won't change anything... so no point... but also, why not? What's the point?... I have to keep working while my mother is dying. I have to process that in 5 years or less, she won't be here anymore... and accept the complicated feelings of no longer having her to